It’s nearly been a year since he’s been gone
But we still sing his goodbye songs
And she knows, she should move on
But she just can’t let him go
No, she just can’t let him go

I’m sorry if I made you wanna cry
I’m sorry if I made you wanna cry
You should know I never meant to hide
I just hate bringin’ you down
Oh, I just hate bringin’ you down

I just can’t seem to get it right today
I just can’t seem to get it right today
I just can’t seem to get it right today
I guess I’m gonna give up
Oh, I guess I’m gonna give up

And I dropped my paintbrush in the dirt
I’m still numb by just how much I hurt
I cut my hand, wait for it to work
But I just couldn’t bring him back
No, I just couldn’t bring him back

I just can’t seem to get it right today
Oh, I just can’t seem to get it right today
I just can’t seem to get it right today
I guess I’m gonna give up
Oh, I guess I’m gonna give up
Oh, I guess I’m gonna give up
Oh, I guess I’m gonna give up
Oh, I guess I’m gonna give up
Oh, I guess I’m gonna give up
Oh Lord, I said I guess I’m gonna give up
Oh Lord, I said I guess I’m gonna give up

Just Can’t Seem To Get It Right Today: Joe Purdy

Who hits their head at work and wants to cry cause its hurting so bad….blah…sometimes i find myself embarrassing and just want to crawl under my bed and pretend I’m not me…

good news is I am recording a couple songs here in LA in 4 weeks…omg! <3 for Jess for finding a way to make it happend. I can’t decide what to record…but the fact that the producer/friendly music man said my voice had a great tone for recording….mmmm….tone is what i treasure above all else….always….I am still blushing!

Top Choices as to what I am going to record:

1. We’re Not Lovers

2. Love Me or Leave

3. The Notebook

4. 1500 Miles

5. Love To Love You, Love To Hate You

Any suggestions would be very appreciated….ekkk…. For now…another Joe Purdy song…I am currently in love!

Wash Away

I got troubles oh, but not today
Cause they’re gonna wash away
They’re gonna wash away

And I have sins Lord, but not today
Cause they’re gonna wash away
They’re gonna wash away

And I had friends oh, but not today
Cause they’re done washed away
They’re done washed away

And oh, I’ve been cryin’
And oh, I’ve been cryin’
And oh, no more cryin’
No, no more cryin’ here

We get along Lord, but not today
Cause we gonna wash away
We gonna wash away

And I got troubles oh, but not today
Cause they gonna wash away
This old heart gonna take them away

-Joe Purdy

Also…for Laughs

…should I draw you the picture of my heart it would be what I hope you would still love though it contained nothing new.  The early possession you obtained there, and the absolute power you have obtained over it, leaves not the smallest space unoccupied.

I look back to the early days of our acquaintance and friendship as to the days of love and innocence, and, with an indescribable pleasure, I have seen near a score of years roll over our heads with an affection heightened and improved by time, nor have the dreary years of absence in the smallest degree effaced from my mind the image of the dear untitled man to whom I gave my heart.

Abigail Adams to John Adams, her husband.  He became the second president of the United States.  Written December 23, 1782

♥ Because my words fall short as well….

So….BIG THANK YOU TO JOHN. He built me 2 excercise bikes this weekend…haha…what an adventure…but it is finally done.

Jess is making  me breakfast…I might kiss her this Sunday since Brent is not here….

Wrote 3 songs this week….mmmm…will post them later on…but for now…some Miley (suprisingly)

Everybody needs inspiration
Everybody needs a soul
A beautiful melody
When the night’s so long
Cause there is no guarantee
That this life is easy

Yeah, when my world is falling apart
When there’s no light to break up the dark
That’s when I, I, I look at you
When the waves are flooding the shore and I
Can’t find my way home anymore
That’s when I, I, I look at you

When I look at you
I see forgiveness
I see the truth
You love me for who I am
Like the stars hold the moon
Right there where they belong and I know
I’m not alone

Yeah, when my world is falling apart
When there’s no light to break up the dark
That’s when I, I, I look at you
When the waves are flooding the shore and I
Can’t find my way home anymore
That’s when I, I, I look at you

You, appear, just like a dream to me
Just like cyledoscope colors that
Prove to me
All I need
Every breath, that I breathe
Dontcha know?
Your beautiful

Yeah yeah..

When the waves are flooding the shore
And I cant find my way home anymore
Thats when I,
I I look at you
I look at you

Yeah yeah..
Oh oh..
You appear just like a dream to me…

…Even when I am in bed my thoughts rush to you, my eternally beloved, now and then joyfully, then again sadly, waiting to know whether Fate will hear our prayer–To face life I must live altogether with you or never see you. Yes, I am resolved to be a wanderer abroad until I can fly to your arms and say that I have found my true home with you and enfolded in your arms can let my soul be wafted to the realm of blessed spirits–alas, unfortunately it must be so–You will become composed, the more so you know that I am faithful to you; no other woman can ever possess my heart–never–never–Oh God, why must one be separated form her who is so dear.

Lunch with the Corderos was amazing yesterday. There was a great brunch and we walked around Old Pasadena and went into a HUGE forever 21 and a couple other stores. Its amazing…but they are FAMILY. I just felt at home with them and realized how MUCH I had missed Ingi! Jess and I stayed a while more and went to Tiffanys and H&M and a small candy shop where we shared a piece of homemade fudge…mmmm

So…I am in love with Tiffany’s Keys…In LOVE. I cant even explain how badly I want one!

Oh to dream…I’d rather spend the money on a ticket home to Brent…

Farmer's Market

Check out Jess and my new blog: thriftyniftyfoodies.wordpress.com. We think we have a good idea and were gonna roll with it! This picture though…I die! The colors make me happy!

Restaurant Website:  www.twin-palms.com

Credit: Header is Deviant Art’s Prayer: Kitton, Farmers Market: Peerless155

P.S. This picture makes me miss Ama, Kerrie, Leslie, Molly, and Holly…..

Makes Me Miss Brent.....

The Farewell of Telemachus and Eucharus – Jaques Louis David

Went to the Getty with Tita and Jess a few days ago…this painting thrills me…and I can now identify with how she feels. Distance makes the heart grow fonder? Distance is just distance….it stinks ♥

I’ve officially moved to California to become a songwriter and theologian. Crazy huh? Going to classes and playing open mic nights are the game plan. Missing Brent is the sacrifice…but I’ve got a heart of gold that lives with me that will keep me going….

I miss whats old and fear whats new…but that is why I came…to finally climb that looming mountain I’ve only ever dared at looked at…

I am afraid of beginning
’cause I don’t know how to end
But you told me that the mountain before us
Would become a plain in our eyes
So I won’t despise
I won’t despise the day
I won’t despise the day of small things

Even when you tell me…
Oh, even then I’m shaking

‘Cause I am afraid of believing
The plans that we make seem so big
But you’ve shown me that we’re never alone
And your spirit will stay by our side
So I won’t despise
I won’t despise the day
I won’t despise the day of small things….

Alli Rogers: Day of Small Things

P.S. I have made 7 friends since I got here…I like number 4 the best

P.P.S. I am going out with the Corderos…I am so excited and feel so ♥ed!

P.P.P.S. It feels good to FINALLY not be the only liberal or feminist in a classroom…the people in my classes are intoxicating…all totally different and coming from different places…but all brilliant and just amazing…its fun to have people who will at least discuss possibilities with you….and R.R.R is…well….I blush…shes fabulous! I’m so glad I turned down Boston College and NYU….this is a much better fit for me…for now

P.P.P.P.S Nine and Inglorious Bastards were amazing…much to chew on!

OH and….293 days till the Wedding…PARTY OF THE YEAR!

And a video that has made me smile all day: